family

Every time I see you

Always

His hair, falls perfectly without him trying. His eyes, shine perfectly when he’s smiling. He took my perfume, sprayed it on himself and said, “so I can smell of you”. I melted. I never really wanted to think I was in love with him, I just thought I want what I cant have, but no, now I know without a shadow of a doubt. I’m in love with him, and if it’s possible to love someone more everyday, I love him more everyday. I hate him. I hate him so much, I loathe his being. And yet I cant help myself, i'm like putty in his hands, I want to hug him, kiss him, hold his hand, I want to feel the beat of his heart, his warm touch next to mine. And yet all of these things are impossible. For now. I’ve set myself a goal, I’m not going to give up without a fight. I know that at least if I don’t give up, I will be able to accept defeat if the time comes, if I try my very hardest. But I know that in the end, you can't make someone love you. So I’ll wait. Always.

iloveyou.

Kenmerken

• idealiseren van de geliefde
• het overnemen van de smaak van de geliefde (houden van dezelfde muziek, eten, kleuren, kleding, films e.d.)
• blindheid voor de negatieve kanten van de geliefde (vandaar het gezegde "liefde maakt blind")
• lichamelijke gevoelens omschreven als weke knieën en vlinders in de buik bij zien van of denken aan de geliefde
• irrationele denkpatronen en handelingen
• het continu denken aan de geliefde
• ernstige verlegenheid en onhandigheid in aanwezigheid van de geliefde
• verhoogde zelfbewustheid in aanwezigheid van de geliefde
• ongemakkelijk, verlangend gevoel bij afwezigheid van de geliefde
• verlies van concentratie
• verlies van eetlust

2011